I just finish all the chores around at home.

I came back at 6:30pm today, my mom was in the middle of preparing dinner. Once I got home, I collected the clothes, folded them, then proceed to help my mom with dinner. I forgot how many plates I’ve washed.

After dinner, I continued washing, I cut some fruits for my dad, finally I threw all the rubbish outside.

I thought I used to have it all. When there was maid around, when I reach home from work, I comfy-ly shower, have my dinner, watch the tv, while there’s someone doing all the washing and cleaning for me.

I used to live a life where many girls would love to.
Living like a princess at home, being with a guy she loves, having a job that she likes and gangs of good friends around.

However, over the past few months, I’ve lost some; but I’ve gained some too. I lost someone I loved, but I gained a job that I’ve always wanted to do. I lost the life of a princess, but I gained the bond between my family members.

Everyone chipped in to help out around the house since my maid was sent back. While we’re waiting for some procedure to be done before we can get a new maid, we have to do basically everything around the house ourselves.

The torturing part is probably taking 2 hours to prepare dinner, and then only 10 minutes to eat and another hour to wash. Don’t you think its a little waste of time?

But I guess the phrase “no pain, no gain” is true.

I had a very scary thought. Will I spend the rest of my life like this? Working in the office, and then go home and continue doing house work?

Sometimes I get confused. I don’t know what is the meaning of life. Is the typical “grow up, study, work, marry, work, and die” cycle means life? What is it in life that we’re actually looking at?

What am I looking at? Since young, I’ve always craved for freedom. Freedom from the control of my parents, freedom to live my life however I want to.

I’m just the kinda person who hates it when people asks me things that I do not want to say. It gives me the feeling that they wanna control me. There are a few people around me, i don’t wanna name any, whom I know cares about me a lot, tend to ask too many questions.

And sometimes these questions, I don’t even know how to answer myself. But even after I’ve answered they don’t seem to believe. I mean, if you want me to answer, you gotta believe me right?

And I know I’m a very stubborn person. So stubborn that I can convince everyone else but myself. There are certain things in life that you’d rather keep to yourself, or you’re just not ready to tell anyone, or there’s simply NOTHING to tell.

I mean it annoys me when you don’t believe what I said. No point asking me if you don’t believe what I tell you, right? I know you care about me, I know you wanna know whoever it is I’m texting or if there’s anyone I like, or if there’s anyone who likes me or whatever else is happening in my life.

You’ve known me for long, you should know that when there’s something I wanna tell you, I’d tell you even if it meant calling you across the world, right?

But I really really really do get annoyed at times when you do the reverse psycho thing. I’m sorry I might not be who I was anymore.. but I believe that if there’s something you wanna tell, you’d tell even if I don’t ask. And you should know that it goes both ways.

I know you’d probably say I’ve changed.. I really don’t know if I did. But I’m still always, always the star beside the angel.. who makes us angel-star.

I don’t know why I’m so emo-ed. Maybe its pms.

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Work.

For those who are used to chatting with me online during working hours will probably realise my disappearance in the past 2 weeks.

That’s because I’ve been going to work in Mandarin Oriental Hotel for my event, which is the Hitachi APAC Sales Kick Off 2007.

I was there basically round the clock.. probably 3-5 hours during the midnight I’m at home sleeping. Other than that I’m just there.

Overall, the event was great, it was hard work. A lot of little hiccups, well, nothing is perfect; but we managed to pull off each and every hiccup without making a deal out of it.

Models: Kaney & Joanne Chin

I end up seeing more of the hotel’s staffs than my parents. From the first shift, to the last shift of the hotel staffs, I was still there.

The best thing is, I get to walk horizontally thru the hotel, and no one stops me. =D

Friends.

So finally, last Saturday is the final day for me to be in the hotel. At the same time, some of my friends decided to have a barbeque at Pyton kor’s house. It was great, cause the whole group was there. All off from whatever they were previously busy-ing about.

Ron: Here muiz, sausage for you.

*grins* the best thing about being the only girl in the group is that your buddies will help in everything, even if it means barbeque-ing your own food. I was just basically sitting there eating, and food just stacked on my plate. =D

EddyHan its normal okay, all good chefs are male. Just accept the fact that women nowadays are born to be served by men, not serve men.

Oh, we almost couldn’t barbeque cuz the pit lost 1 of its legs. So Pyton and Ron broke the other 3 legs and put it on top of that i-dunno-what.

Obviously, after barbeque, the next thing they must do is….

…none other than MAHJONG!

My cards were nice that day, but I wasn’t really playing cos I was feeling freaking tired. Didn’t have much sleep since I was working late and all. So I just hung around and fill in empty spaces once in awhile.

Family.

So looks like way before I said yes, my mom agreed to my cousin for me to go to Genting on Labour’s Day.

Her excuse being, “you were too busy to say yes, so I said yes for you, and we’re all going.”

Thanks, mom.

My cousin, Evian; her hubby, Lawrence; their 2 years old baby; Ken Yi; Evian’s brother, Benjamin; Benjamin’s girlfriend, Alice; were all from Johore. They drove up to KL at 5am from Johore, we met them in the middle of the highway at about 9am. Then we had breakfast on the way up to Genting.

Since they came all the way from Johore, they decided to stay a night in Genting. In which means I had to stay in Genting for a night too. Evian booked way before, even so, there were no more rooms in the other hotels other than Theme Park.

We reached Genting at about 11am. Ben and Lawrence headed to the casino straight, we had to take the kids to the theme park. -_-

what is so nice to peek? Got leng chai in there?

While walking we saw this box thing, a man was speaking in those mandarin where you will only hear in the China olden movies. He was telling story about some China history.

What I find amusing was the people peeping into the hole. I really wanted to peek and see what is inside.. but too bad the queue was long. And this guy multitasks like crazy. While telling stories, he could sometimes knock the “chiang chiang thing”, sometimes change the poster, sometimes I don’t know, change the pic of the leng chai inside the box or something.

Mom and I

Basically, it was a “teman-the-kids-play” trip. I was being a baby sitter, for my nephew, Ken Yi. But I don’t mind. Cos he’s just so cute I could cuddle him wherever I go. But because of that, I’m having a major backache, and my left arms feels like its gonna break.

my oh-so-yeng brother, Jason

And yeah, that’s how I spent my holidays/off days. Simple friends & family gathering. No parties, no alcohol, and no going wild. How decent.

me, Evian, Ken Yi

I don’t think I have the strength to even party, though.

BEING FAT !!!

And SHIT. I don’t know why, even when I constantly forget my lunch/dinner while I was working for the past 2 weeks. I was GAINING WEIGHT. Or at least it looks like I’m gaining weight!

No, its not only me!!! Even my mom says so! ARGH! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

I NEED TO DIET!!!!!1111

*Updated*

There was a Labour’s Day Fireworks at the Highlands Hotel Carpark yesterday. It was beautiful! Kinda filled the lost of not being able to watch fireworks during the 2006 Christmas and 2007 New Years.

Watch it on You Tube:

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Haven’t been blogging since I came back from PD! =D

Been having good rests! Also been accompanying my mom these 3 days.. Haven’t had that mother-daughter bond for the past 3 or 4 months.. hehe.. The bonding was great!

Day 1 – MondayPromised my mom to go facial and salon with her for quite long di. Hehe I could finally fulfill my promises ngeks i didn’t break them, just a bit slow in that department.

Promised my mom to go facial and salon with her for quite long di. Hehe I could finally fulfill my promises ngeks i didn’t break them, just a bit slow in that department.Went to Times Square’s BizzyBody for facial.. whoa.. 3 hours long. I think I kinda slept like a pig. Damn satisfying to have someone massaging your shoulder and face while sleeping! The last time I went facial was like 3 months ago!!

It was also a good timing, cuz my eye-bag and complexion kinda screwed up after PD. Lucky didn’t get sunburnt. Hehe.

Facial started at 12:30pm. Ended at about 3+pm. Went to get some light lunch, then went to the salon straight – which is also in Times Square.

Had to wait a bit, damn sien. But nvm ler, there was this cute guy working there. He reminds me of one of my friend. Very cute looking hehe, and he washed my hair! =D

Anyways, trimmed my hair, cut my fringe.. and re-highlighted. So now.. i look like this!

and….. like this!

Hehe, pardon me for my messy room @_@

Got home like 8pm, had my dinner, then went out for a drink at about 10pm. Ron suddenly suggested to go for a yum cha session at Genting! Since the rest had work, so only 4 of us went – Ron, Ayi, Etta and I.

Ron and Etta

We left Cheras at about 11:30pm. We reached First World at about 12+am. We headed to Starbucks, and sat down to chat. Funny, the 4 of us could click quite well.. we bullshiet a lot, laughed a lot, talk about happy stuffs, unhappy stuffs.. everything. It felt great..

Ayi and I

Left Starbucks at about 2am.. reached home about 3am.

Me @ Starbucks. Look at that eye bag!

Day 2

Woke up early! At about 11:30am. Dropped by Great Eastern Mall to collect my offer letter from In2′s office. First glance at the office: whoa so messy geh.. Second glance at the people: yer, no leng chai geh lol.

Mom suddenly said she wanted to get a dog. -_______-” I think those who knew me long ago, knows that I’m darn freaking afraid of dogs. I don’t know why, they just like to bark at me, and I’m damn afraid of them, freaks the hell out of me.

Anyways, she said, go to the pet shops, look at the cute little pups and I’ll love them.. so, I agreed to go and have a look with her.

We went to Mid Valley, but we didn’t know that the Pet’s Wonderland was closed down for renovation until April. =.=!! So we had nothing to do, we went shopping instead. Bought 2 long sleeves shirts from Guess. Hehe hey, there was sale okayyyy! The shirts were suppose to cost RM550! and they were on 50% sale!!!! Slurps!

After that, I told my mom, I had the urge to go and pierce my ears again. So we headed to Tomei, and I got my 3rd and 4th piercing above the 2 original piercings from each ear. I would probably not show you how it looks like yet, cuz its swollen and its ugly. lol.

The last time I pierced my ears was like… probably 8 years ago! I couldn’t exactly remember how it feels like, I felt damn scared that its gonna hurt and I’m gonna yell for the whole MV to hear! The sales fella was nice, he sprayed extra extra alcohol on my ears, they felt numb. The anticipation for the pain when he press on the “gun” was killing! I grabbed my mom’s hands and closed my eyes, I was like, faster la faster la!!! and *bang!* …………………

……………………….. chiuuuuu! not pain wan. =.=”

Hehe, mom treated me Baskin Robins after that. =D

We still wanted to go and see pups.. so she suggested we go to the Pet’s Wonderland at Great Eastern Mall. And that’s where I fell in love with 2 months old pups! They were so quiet, so cute.. so innocent, so adorable!!! After that I told my mom, okay lets go ahead and get a pup! And she said we’ll go pup hunting the next day.

When I was about to reached home, the gang called, Etta was suppose to go to some pub in Taman Desa, so we decided to go Happy Hour there.

We went to a place called “The Grid”.

And the place sux. We had a jug of beer, played some pool, chatted a little and left.

Went to Gobi for a drink, felt so darn tired coz I was walking the entire day! Reached home at about 12am, took a nice shower, tried to blog but couldn’t get in the admin site, so I gave up and slept.

Day 3

Woke up a bit later today.. at about 12:30pm. Mom wanted to go for lunchie with Aunt Min at SS2. So being a good girl, I went with her. Had lunch until about 2:30pm.

We saw a pet shop next to Babyland in SS2, so we went in and check out the pups. I fell in love with a Silky Terrier..!! Costs RM980.. its like 2 months old! So wanted to get it already, but mom called my cousin, Kenny, and he said to bring us go elsewhere to hunt more before we decide. Plus that pup has no cert.. so he said its better to get one with cert so we are sure of its origins.

Met Kenny at Old Klang Road, we went to this house where he bought his Schnauzer, but the owner wasn’t at home.. then we went to USJ 6, where someone advertised on the newspaper about pups for sale.

We saw a lovely Yorkshire Terrier there! Its 4 months old, active and quiet and cute and adorable!!!! Guess how much it is? RM1,800!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAaaaaaaa!!!! Pain in the ass. Then Kenny brought us to this pet shop in Taipan.

And that’s where I met the best-est of all pups I’ve seen! A breed mix of Maltese and Chi Hua Hua! Whoa, that pup is a killer! When I held it, its so light I just wanna hug it to sleep!!! Sobs, but mom doesn’t like it cuz its not a terrier =.=

Don’t you just love him????

According to Kenny’s wife, Ee Von, the pup wouldn’t grow much! Sigh.. mom is still in the midst of deciding whether to take the 4 months old yorkshire terrier or this whitey killer. Man, I love this pup!

Got home at about 8pm, had my dinner, took a shower. Wai Leong picked me up and we went to yum cha at Gobi at about 9pm. Just got home not long ago.. hehe.
A New Start

Well, these 3 days passed by like a wind blew pass! I felt like a new person, what happened in the past 4 months seem like a distant memory.

Maybe its because I felt that everything else doesn’t matter anymore.. I’m still who I am, I’m still happy. Of course, I still miss certain things, but I don’t cry for them, I don’t dream for them to happen anymore.

If there’s one thing that I’ve learnt is to let things be, because these things happen to be beyond my control. Maybe its because I couldn’t control my own emotions, nor what was happening, thats why I felt so darn frustrated.

For some reason, I felt so darn tired to have my mind constant on the run thinking about why this, why that, how, what, when and so on. I kinda forgotten that I was suppose to enjoy life, and live my life, not drag on the life for nothing.

I felt great, felt like a new person again. I have people who I could trust and truly cared about me all around. I don’t know how many good luck sms-es I’ve gotten today from all my friends, they all remembered that I’m starting at In2 tomorrow.

Thanks, guys. I really really appreciate all of you who’d been there for me for the past month. To take all those stupid emotions I had, all the whinings and crying, all the frustrations. Thanks for the night out, thanks for the trip.. and I should really thank my mom for the past 3 days.. though she doesn’t know that I was down, but yeah, she’s the best-est mom a girl could have.

I can’t wait to start at In2 tomorrow. I don’t know what to expect except a life where I should give my full concentration to work. Or I’d probably have no time for social life. I don’t mind.. I don’t mind going all out for something I’ve always wanted to do, for something that I enjoy doing.

I can’t exactly say I have the full confidence to be able to take the job, but I can tell you that I’d expect the worse, and I’m ready to face the challenge, and I will try my best to take it.

Many would probably expect me to quit the job in short term. I don’t know, I think people have the impression that I’m a princess who can’t take stress nor hardwork. But I think some of you, who really know me, knows that I have a strong will to prove these people wrong, I’m not a weak princess, though I may portray to be one, but hey! don’t judge a book by its cover.

I’m no rich princess, though, yes, I admit I’m still mommy and daddy’s little girl, but I’m a fully grown little girl. Hehe. I’m no good girl, I’m no perfect pure sweet princess. I’m me, take it or leave it.

Okay, this is getting a little too far away, but oh well, its MY blog hehe. I’d like to give myself a little motivation here. =D Actually ar, I quite sked larrrrrrrrrr! hahaha but nvm lar, I’d overcome the fear of dogs, I’m sure nothing is scarier than having dogs barking at you and wanting to bite you. =D

Well, I should sleep early tonight. Let’s hope there’s leng chai for more motivation at In2 tomorrow. Haha. Gnites all, sweet dreams..

Life is how you live, not how people want you to live. Learn to take shit, learn to let go of things that you cannot have, yep, thanks to all who were there for me. and I meant ALL of you =) Muaks!

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