Yes, there was this thing that i used to be really talented in. And i’ve lost touch of it.
I realised that I lost my whining ability. I’m serious. And yes, it’s a LOSS. Hey, not everyone have this talent to whine about everything. And it was something that was pretty useful to me when I was working back at In2. It gets me through the tough times & the stress back then.
Over the pass few months, I seem to have lesser and lesser things to whine about. Especially work-related issues. Maybe because I’ve given up - from the management to the people and especially the technical facilities. I think I got fed up of complaining that everything in this company (including my desk phone) isn’t functioning properly. So yeah, I might as well adapt to the disabled machines and the slow moving people.
Anyway, yeah, I guess I got too lazy to even whine about it anymore. As for other aspects of my life? I don’t think I’m even bothered anymore. There are many times when other things get on my nerves too. But I guess I know the situation won’t change anyway. So I’ve learnt to just get on with it and forget about it. The keyword is tolerate.
Oh, that reminds me. The good thing is, my level of tolerance increased to the maximum. There were situations when I got really pissed & had a very very bad urge to tell some people off. BUT! I managed to shrug it off. My heart has this special talent to stop the rage.
Not bad huh? And when I get realllllllllllllyyyyyyyy mad.. I usually just rage it off on my blog. So, yeah no one gets hurt that way. But i think most of the time I’m just not interested in fighting with other people’s opinions.. unless this person tells me something serious like he wanna go rob the bank la. I have been listening to people whine, rant, rage, gossip, and scream over the past few months.. and as far as life is concern? Whatever goes… No point getting angry over something that don’t matter to me.
I don’t know if this -whine +tolerance thing is actually good for me.. but all i know is that it is affecting me in the sense that I have no interest in entertaining people anymore, and I seem to have lesser conversation topics. I used to be able to crap about anything and everything, chat day and night – with the same person and I’d still have things to talk about. But now I’d rather be the one listening instead.
Maybe I finally got tired of bullshitting lol.
But I honestly have a lot of things I’d like to do.. One of it is working in another country. I think I kinda got sick of the people here in Malaysia.. especially in the IT/Games industry – which involves a lot of China-men people. I can’t stand their slow productivity rate, their ignorance.. and the fact that these people are just simply unprofessional. I’m not saying everyone, but at least the ones I used to work with and the ones I’m currently working with. The best thing is, these people are still surviving. Oh well, none of my business. We all work for pay days, bonuses and increments. I just mind my own business and keep up my own performance.
Oh, side track a bit.. I think there are 4 less lonely people in the world recently. Good for them =)
Hmm.. this post is getting a little depressing.. hehe, I blame the pms. 
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